Monday, March 7, 2011

Things on my mind

Well there has been a lot of things on my mind lately and since I haven't shared a lot of personal insight recently I thought I would try to accomplish some of it tonight.  I am not really sure where to start so this blog might be unorganized so please bare with me.

Morals.  Everyone has morals and everyone's morals are different in some sort of way.  People's morals come from a variety of places as well.  For me most of my morals have come from my family especially my parents and my religious upbringing.  I would have to say for most of my life my Catholic faith has helped me shape the person I am today with the help of my family.  When I meet people with different morals it is hard for me to find a deep connection with people when our morals differ a lot.  I try to understand where everyone is coming from, but when I believe in something strongly it is hard to see the other point as correct.  What I more important than thinking someone is correct or incorrect is again understanding.  It is okay not to agree with a person in my opinion but that doesn't mean you can't be friends or treat them with respect.  I don't agree with the choices people make and it is hard for me to understand why in the world they would do something like that, but I need to remember to respect them, even if I don't believe and approve of what they are doing.  Too many people my age are too quick to judge.

We all need to be happy for what we are given and what we have, but we also need to know what is important in life.  Is money so important that we should go to graduate school just to make more money?  Should we complain about having kids because it is going to be painful for the female body?  Should we not give back to our community because we are too busy in our own lives?  Should we try to act like someone else just to impress someone else?  I hope you all know where I am going with this... the answer to all those questions is no.  Over the past couple of weeks I have witnessed people doing those exact things.  It literally kills me inside - and to be honest I don't know why it does.  I guess I have come to realize I need to grateful for all that I am given - I will never be able to thank the people enough for all they have given me.  Every person I have met throughout my life has changed me in a certain way even if you don't think you have.  Even if our friendship didn't end the best you have made me a stronger person and shape who I am today.  There is so much I want to say to so many people on how you have changed me it is crazy and I would have no idea where to start.  If you are really interested you can ask me and I will let you know - this blog would be forever long if I tried to do it here.  But I want you all to think about the people you have met in your life and how they have changed you.  Anyways, money is important I understand that, but you are going to hate your job or going to school for a longer amount of time is it really worth it?  I really don't believe so, but that is just my personal opinion.  So what if child birth is painful!? Do you think it wasn't painful for Jesus to die on the cross for me and you... ehh no!? So suck it up and be happy you have bring another human being into the work - it is a miracle for goodnessakes! If you can not find an hour out of every week to give back to the community I think you need to rethink your life, buddy.  Sorry if that is blunt, but really one hour our of every week shouldn't be that much of a time commitment.  And please just be yourself - people will love you for the way you are not for being a fake person.

I am traveling the world at 20 years old.  Yes, I can't even believe it myself.  I am traveling the world at 20 years old - I just had to say it again.  That is such a crazy thought.  The opporturnity that I have been given by my parents, God, and everyone else who has helped is unbelievable.  Just about every weekend I am traveling to a new and exciting place, seeing different parts of the world, and bonding with different people on the trips.  At some points I really take the opportunity for granite - sometimes I don't realize how lucky I am to be studying in Madrid and have the funds to travel so many places while I am here.  I love having my blog where I get to share all the adventures I am having with everyone and it is great for me to express how I am feeling.  At first I was a little nervous about sharing my feelings so openly, but to be honest it doesn't really feel like I am because I am not talking directly to a person, but I know a lot of people read the blog.  However, everyone is really respectful and takes to heart when I "spill my guts" in way so thank you for that.

Today I had a wonderful day! I wore sandals which Gloria freaked out about a little bit because she doesn't want me to get sick, however, the day was gorgeous!! I was glad I wore sandals! I also went to the soup kitchen with Jackie today.  We did not serve food instead we were in the kitchen watching the dishes, but we still had a great time and all the people that came into the soup kitchen would smile and us and were just really friendly - that always happens though - I am blonde and American. But it is all good.  As we say in Spain "no pasa nada" :)  Otherwise my life has been pretty great.  Mom and Dad come in about a week and a half!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Can you see my excitement!?  It is going to be a great time!! To be honest Gloria has really turned into my second mom, even with the language barrier and everything.  This morning I had to ask Gloria for some rice to see if that would help my camera work - it was interesting to try to explain why I needed rice.  I always have an interesting time when I am talking Spanish - I am sure everyone would get a kick out of it - Gloria always has a good laugh.  I really do love her!! Well I think that is about all for tonight.  For some reason I couldn't think of everything I wanted to say, I am sure it will come to me at a later time and I will be more than willing to share it with you all :)

Paz y Amor.  God Bless.

Oh P.S. I really miss volunteering at Almost Home - the homeless shelter close to SLU in Saint Louis.  My friend Audrie went with me last semester and is still going and she sent me a picture of one of the kids today - it made me miss them even more :)

Christopher - so cute. I miss him!

1 comment:

  1. We love hearing your insights on life! I know it can be hard to just type and spill your guts, but don't you feel so amazing afterwards? Just trust in those who love you to understand, and be yourself! You are an awesome girl who has this amazing opportunity and we want to be there for you! :)